HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!
I hope you all enjoyed welcoming in the new year back in January with drinks, parties and hopefully lots of good food - and I hope you all took pictures! I'd really love to see them.
I hope you all enjoyed welcoming in the new year back in January with drinks, parties and hopefully lots of good food - and I hope you all took pictures! I'd really love to see them.
This past year, for me, has been hard.
Relationships, university, having a full-time job... BLOGGING. It's all been a bit much, to be honest. And in my reflections on this past year, I've been asking myself whether it all has been worth it...
Well, it has. The relationships I've had with people have definitely changed me as a person. And although the ends of those relationships have been hard to deal with, I think I've changed for the better and will no longer allow myself to be walked over, disrespected or unappreciated by anyone. Friend or boyfriend. Because I really am beautiful, inside and out, and I don't deserve what I've been handed by men in the past. So that will really shape the way 2016 goes, and beyond.
Work has been challenging. There has been more downs than ups, and I am really looking forward to going back to university for another two years. I also think I don't want to be a chef anymore. I have honestly lost the passion I had before when it comes to cooking. I wouldn't go as far as to say it doesn't make me happy, but working where I work and the daily pressure I have to produce something half decent isn't what I thought cheffing would be. I went into my job with an open mind, knowing that at times things would be tough. But weighing up the number of times I've cried in the staff changing room with the amount of times I've laughed so hard my cheeks and stomach hurt, the bad times win every. single. time.
But this isn't the end of my search for something greater. I definitely want to pursue a career in hospitality, maybe the "front of house", as I love (and miss) customer interaction a lot more than I thought I would. I remember how much it helped and improved my social anxiety having to meet new people every day and helping make their time at the restaurant or bar as special as I could. You know that face you make a restaurant when you see your food coming to your table? The happiness you feel? I miss being able to give people that feeling!! It made my job so, so worthwhile.
And lastly, blogging. Oh, how I have missed it. How I have missed you. It's the one thing in this past year that I fully committed to and enjoyed with all my heart. It gave me purpose when I was an unemployed teenage student, battling feelings of loneliness in my first year away from home and trying hard to be the best I could be at my theory and practical work while at university. So I am truely sorry for the inconsistency. It hasn't been fun for anyone, including me, I felt guilty ever Sunday a post didn't go up, and at the start of the year when I didn't wish you all a happy new year. And omg, my lack of Christmas posts - I mean what a joke right? Being a Christina and not posting a single thing to do with Christmas??? Absolutely mad, haha.
So things will be different this year. I promise.
Stick with it!
Christina x
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